May 2011
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Song Of The Day - Independent Women PT II
So today I give you my ULTIMATE THEME SONG! When I say I LIVE by this song. I real live do. I do shit FOR myself and BY myself. I play the game just like the rest. And although my disbelief in love is a tad bit changing lately; I still live by the words of this song like no OTHER:
Destiny’s Child - Independent Women PT. II
What you think about a girl like me? Drive my own car and spend my...
April 2011
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Song Of The Day - Silly Hoe
Soooo… Today Ima post one of my theme songs! A song that I LIVE by:
TLC - Silly Hoe
Whoot Whoot Whoot Whoooo Whoot Whoot Whoot Whoooo Whoot Whoot Whoot Whoooo Whoot Whoot Whoot Whoooo I ain’t never been no Silly Ho; waiting for your call like the other girls want you I ain’t never been no one to mess with someone else’s mess! That’s not a thing for me to do I...
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Song Of The Day - Faith
So yesterday I was chatting with my counterpart about… Well, the ish we usually be chatting about lolz.. And Idk, somwhere in there she started yelling at me and all of a sudden she yelled “HAVE FAITH DAMMIT”…. And idk why but somehow that spoke to me,….Just so you know Veezy, IK it seems like we have the same convo over and over again but I do listen. And with that I...
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Song Of The Day - The Voice
So today is my first “non series song” but I wanted to continue on in that motivational spirit of my new life. I done been through a lot these past few months; but through all of that, I’ve been connecting more and more with a spiritual side. A lot of #MusicalMeditation been going on for me. And the more I meditate, the more things hit me about how STRONG I really am. And with...
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#PersonalSeries
So those of you that have been keeping up with the blog have gotten a FULL week of as much of my life as I can give.
I am a hurt, confused, angry, reflective, indifferent, yet determined and happy person. Probably makes no sense but its who I am. And looking back, I can’t say I’m HAPPY for all that I’ve been through but I’m PROUD of the person it has made me to be!
Thank...
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Song Of The Day - Just Fine
#PersonalSeries - Song 7 - Happiness
So today is the FINAL day of my 7-day series. This song represents the ending of that phase. I’ve gone from hurt to confused to angry to reflective to indifferent to determined. And now, im where I FULLY need to be: HAPPY! I have bad days; I hit rock bottom the night before this series started actually. But the bad days don’t last so long anymore...
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Song Of The Day - Fighter
#PersonalSeries - Song 6 - Determination
Today is day six of my 7 day series! Now, after reading all my daily posts some of you are most likely like o_0! Neva knew I went through such hell did ya? But will all that I can’t complain. People, one person in particular, tried SO hared to break me and stop me. But as it is said in Psalms 129:2 “They have GREATLY oppressed me from my youth;...
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Second Song Of The Day - One Day You Will
So I briefly interrupt my #PersonalSeries to do for someone else. The past few days have seen ALOT of heart2hearts Getting alot off of my chest with A LOT of people. But anyway, a really special person has a hard time finding something to hold on to. Ironically, that’s the same person that showed me what to hold on to. But, dearest counterpart, you can hold on to US as a fam until you find...
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Song Of The Day - Take Me As I Am
#PersonalSeries - Song 5 - Indifference
Today is the fifth day of my seven day series! Now, those who are closest to me know me as that take correction from no one, think how I want, believe what I want, act how I want, no fucking giving ass person… But it took a LONG journey for me to get to that point. Growing up I was that kid that pretended for the sake of everyone else. I pretended...
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Song Of The Day - Conversations With My Thirteen...
#PersonalSeries - Song 4 - Reflection
Today is the fourth day of my 7-day series. This song is the middle point, not only of this series but of my life. It serves as not only a description of my situation; but it is also a reflection of how far I have come. Things did not correct themselves for me. I stepped in a corrected them. And looking back now, I’d go back and tell the younger me to...
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Song Of The Day - My Vietnam
#PersonalSeries - Song 3 - Anger
Today is day 3 of my 7-day series! This song goes back to the essence of me. Its a mixture of my childhood and the person that my childhood has made me to be. In good and bad ways. I see life and the world as a constant battle. Some have become my allies (I.E. My HAMily), and I’d fight to them till the DEATH; taking loyalty BEYOND seriously. However, some...
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Song Of The Day - Reflection
#PersonalSeries - Song 2 - Confusion
Today is the second day of my 7-day series! With this song, I wanna get across alot about me. I spent forever pretending to be ok and happy… And it ended with me being PISSED; I never got my point across growing up. No matter how unhappy, disturbed, or hurt I was; I brave faced and kept going. Everything was inside; and now it is coming OUT with...
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Song Of The Day - Family Portrait
#PersonalSeries - Song 1 - Hurt
So yesterday saw another heart2heart with the counterpart; along with an EXPLOSIVE blowup of pent up anger… Its hard explaining aspects of my life because in all honesty… There are no words for some of the ish I done been through. Hell, A third world war and living purgatory are probably the three most accurate descriptions… But anyway, Ima try to...
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Jennifer Hudson - My Heart
SO this one is just a continuation of the heart2heats Ive been havin with the baby bro and the counterpart. My current thoughts on my situation is I’m trusting who my guts tell me to trust and hoping for the best. All I gotta say about it is said in this song:
Jennifer Hudson - My Heart
You turned me on, sounds so good talking fast. But before we go on there’s something I should...
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Song Of The Day - Lions Tigers And Bears
So yesterday I had somewhat of a heart2heart wit my baby brother! He put a WHOLE lot into perspective for me about trusting and listening and what to take seriously. I real live appreciate him for coming through for me. But anyway, even though IK who to trust and what to do, I’m scared… As HELL. And I got good reason to be. And with that I present my song of the day
Jazmine Sullivan -...
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Song Of The Day - Unstoppable
So the past few weeks my girlfriends have been going through a LOT. A WHOLE LOT! But most of them are slowly but surely putting themselves back together again; and for that I am both happy and proud. I just wanted to drop this to give them just a little more inspiration in their quest to find new, better happiness. This is for Ve, Chelz & Sade. I LOVE YALL AND DON’T EVER FORGET IT! And...
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Song Of The Day - Stand
So late last night, I randomly had another heart2heart with the counterpart. Been a few days since we had a real intense one of those…. But once again, while helping her with her things; I realized something about my own. You go through things that damn near break you; I of all people know this TOO well; but somehow you seem to push trough it and make something beautiful out of the ruins...
#OneUp - Jay Stylz "Hustle Hard"
The big brutha bout to come HARD on a new track entitled “Hustle Hard”. Check out the artist page! :)
http://www.reverbnation.com/jaystylzmusic
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Think About It - The Brand New Dutchess
So, these past few days have seen alot of thinking from me. Alot of inside metamorphasis. Something that unless you REALLY knew me, you wouldn’t evn notice. But im begining a whole new me. A whole new era of The Dutchess; a whole new Melissa Elizabeth Swauncy… This new me shall officially be FREE! Free from ALL the past household shit that fucked me over mentally, emotionally, and in any other...
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Song Of The Day - Imagine Me
So, these past few days have seen alot of thinking from me. Alot of inside metamorphasis. Something that unless you REALLY knew me, you wouldn’t evn notice. (Im going to do a blog post about this later on tonight). But im beggining a whole new me. A whole new era of The Dutchess; a whole new Melissa Elizabeth Swauncy… This new me shall officially be FREE. Free from ALL the past...
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Song Of The Day - Because Of You
So today saw a BEYOND heated argument between me & the counterpart. I luv that girl to death, but there are some aspects of my life that she just wont understand. No one will until they walk a few miles in my shoes or spend a few years in my household. I walk away when I lose control and I don’t beleve. No need for therapy because I already know the reason… Everyone close to me...
djphoenix523:
Set It Off - Jay Stylz
BUMP DAT...
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Song Of The Day - Words
SO im not going into a long a** rant about why this song means something to me. Those that know me BEST, know the significance.
Bobby Valentino - Words
Yeah Been looking for you girl… Is it you? I hope so… let’s go
A good man’s hard to find That’s 1 of ya’ll favorite lines But finding wifey ain’t no easier What am I supposed to do? SHAWTY GOT ME SO...
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Song Of The Day - So Cold
So today started off STUPID uneventful, it was just usual ish. Until around 10ish when a jelous ex decided to take his animosity for my TWIN to TWITTER. (#Rude). I REALLY wanted to say something and get RATCHETT but I stayed out of it cause she wanted to fight on her own (Proud of her #GrownWomanSwagg). But, it DID inspire my song of the day. If you treat a girl like SHIT dont be upset when she...
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Second Song Of The Day - Bring On The Rain
So anyway, there is another song of the day to go through MY feelings of today. This morning started off with INTENSE pain, a recurrence of household drama, weakness, school problems, relationship doubts, an uncle back in the hospital, and yet ANOTHER doctor with no CLUE about my illness… Its like everything is yet again falling apart at once… And I was out of it, like really, like...
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Song Of The Day - I Believe In Love
So last night saw yet another intense heart to heart between me and my counterpart. And with all the talking with did I realized something, I have NEVER truly believed in love until now. Growing up in my house, love was a thing you didn’t see. I don’t mean love in general but I mean TRUE love. Like romance… And I also realized something else, the person that made ME believe that...
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Song Of The Day - Lesson Learned
So last night I was having yet another heart to heart with my counterpart. This time, the lesson was on her. People break hearts and get thiers broke, and each break is a LESSON. Something to make you stronger in love, in LIFE. And with that I present my song of the day:
Carrie Underwood - Lesson Learned
There’s some things that I regret, Some words I wish had gone unsaid, Some starts that...
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Song Of The Day - So Small
So last night I was talking to my counterpart about differences and fears and the past and all that stuff… And the more I talked, the more I realized that those BIG issues and pains were pretty minor next to my LOVE. Not just my love for one person in particular but my love for myself, my crew and and my dreams…. And with that I present my song of the day:
Carrie Underwood - So Small
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Think About It - Racial Progression and...
Today my little brother was tweeting about lack of progression of African Americans and I had a realization: lack of progression is a result of the lack of diversification.
Firstly, there is a “stick together” notion among African Americans. One of my twitter followers (no offense intended to her) saw my attack on this as an attack on HBCUs. Which, in part, it is. I feel that since...
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Song Of The Day - Save The Hero
So, I spent 99% of my time taking care of people and fixing shit. Making people happy comes before my own happiness, just a part of who I am. But lately between family drama, hamily drama, and my own health kicking my ass; I feel like its all slipping from under me… Ive spent so much time saving the world that I no longer know how to save myself… Nor do I have anyone in my corner to...
